I really don’t know what I’m supposed to do.
I mean, I started shutting down like crazy and pushing people away and snapping and having more self-destructive tendencies than usual. Things are slipping by and it still hasn’t sunk in. It hasn’t substantiated for me, and it’s already nearing its combustion. I still haven’t figured out how to live in the present without feeling the pain, but then again being numb about it just makes me even sadder.
The last time I had a dream was a month ago, and that sucks too.
I need time. I need more time.
And I need to know.
I need answers.