Stop giving up.
You can’t imagine how many times I’ve heard this. You have to know that it’s hard. Instincts of self-preservation kick in, and voila I just become numb to the pain. So I just happen to let go.
Okay, fine. So maybe it’s not voila, hello numbness. You just learn to hold it in and put on that fake grin and keep checking your tear ducts. You slowly learn to ignore how happy or fake-happy the person is. You slowly detach yourself, and it stings more and more as you make progress.
I keep doing it anyway. And as of now, if you weigh that pain against another heaping dose of false hope, it’s ridiculously tempting.
You have to know it’s hard.
It’s hard not to just give in and do it.
But I don’t think I’m doing it this time. Not on you.